[Episode 139]
In my room, there's a blue bag.
You'll find my letters there.
I want you to take care of things after I'm gone, Hyogyong.
I'm sorry.
You must hate me for what I did,
but please understand me.
My soul will protect you and Junso.
I promise you.
My soul will always be with you and Junso.
Don't think of this as farewell.
And don't be sad.
Whenever I looked at the ocean,
I always wanted to jump into the cool, refreshing water.
I felt like I could finally breathe when I did that.
I have an entire ocean before my eyes.
Endless ocean...
Please be happy with Junso and Songjon.
And let me say this again.
Please don't look for my body.
I don't want you to see me that way.
That's my last part of pride asking.
I'm just so happy to see my brother again.
Hello, Mom?
Look for a blue bag in Yaya's room.
Her letters should be in there.
Did you find her?
No.
Look for it and let me know what she wrote.
Keep it well.
Okay.
They didn't find her?
What's the point of being out here?
Let's go somewhere and talk about this.
Yaya is in that cold, cold water.
Hello?
She left one letter for us...
and one for Hwaom.
I can't bring myself to read it. You read it yourself.
The letter for Hwaom is sealed.
All right.
Yaya left a note for you.
I think it's sealed.
Do you want her to open it and read it for you?
No.
Hello?
It's me.
Did you find Yaya?
No.
Have somebody get here right now.
Producer Jang is not moving from the seawall.
Our staffs have left.
I don't want him to jump in or anything.
Stay by his side, no matter what.
Until our staffs get there.
Make sure you keep your eye on him at all times.
Okay.
I heard she left a note.
What does it say?
Text me what it says to my phone.
Let's just come clean.
I'm sure she wrote that we told her to go abroad.
My brother will text me her suicide note.
I'll read it to you.
I'm so sorry, Hyogyong.
I never told anyone.
But I was suffering from severe depression.
I tried to fight it, but I couldn't.
Let me ask you for two favors:
Please send me away quietly.
And please don't look for my body.
I want to be set free in the blue ocean...
where my brother's ashes were scattered.
I miss him very much.
And Nadan, too...
Yaya, is this really all happening?
How is it that you're in that water?
How could you...?
Yongjun is gone and now you...
How am I supposed to live?
And let me say this again.
Please don't look for my body.
I don't want you to see me that way.
That's my last part of pride asking.
I'm just so happy to see my brother again.
Have you heard that she had depression?
Not at all.
If it was that hard for her, she should've asked for help.
The foolish brat...
We should go somewhere for the ladies.
Hyogyong isn't feeling well, either.
Don't worry about me.
How can we not worry about you?
We have to talk about what we're going to do.
How to say goodbye...
She doesn't want us looking for her.
I can't send her away.
I'll stay here, so you guys go and eat something.
Go back to Seoul.
What about you?
You can't stay here forever.
Are you okay?
Yes.
You should eat something.
How can we go alone?
She didn't have depression.
There must've been some other reason.
That foolish girl...
People say living is better than any heaven.
She was acting all smart, but she was a fool.
Have something to drink.
President Jang is very worried about you.
She used depression as an excuse,
and never mentioned anything we did.
We should've just let her get married.
We're so foolish that we always regret...
after things go terribly wrong.
How do I live now, Mother?
The same goes for me.
Yes, sir.
Let's go.
If you don't go, your father will come here himself.
You need to see her note for you.
You have to go so that we can go, too.
Please just go.
I can't leave Yaya all alone here.
I won't.
Then are you going to stay here forever?
Just drag him back!
I booked a VIP room at Gangnam Hospital,
so take turns in watching him 24 hours there.
Yes, sir.
It's your father's order.
Let go. Let go of me!
Let me go! Please! Let me go!
I can't go! I can't.
Please...
Seafood stew, please.
For four people?
No.
I don't want any.
I think I'd get indigestion.
You have to eat it. Even if it's just the soup...
We'll just order three portions.
Sure.
She didn't want any funeral.
How can we not hold one for her?
Let's not.
Let's do what she wants.
That was her last wish.
But we need a proper goodbye for her...
Did you know that she was suffering from depression?
She never smiled happily...
But I assumed it was because of Nadan...
I think although that's what she wrote,
she didn't suffer from depression.
She must have some other reason.
I gave birth to her, of course I know her!
It must be something else.
She didn't have any financial problems, did she?
No way.
She still had everything Nadan left behind.
She was just about to be married...
Only President Jang stopped by the hospital while Yaya was hospitalized.
Yaya went out to meet Hwaom's grandmother and mother once,
but she never talked about it.
If they met about wedding preparations, she would've mentioned it.
I should look into it.
I'm going back to Seoul after we eat.
Jia is all alone, too.
I ordered some food.
Enjoy your food.
Thank you.
Where should we eat?
You should eat.
You have to eat even if it's just a little bit.
You want me to eat noodles when Yaya is gone?
Are you going to starve yourself to death?
If you're going to eat one day anyway,
don't torture your body and eat now.
If you want to be healthy, you should take care of yourself.
Do you want some kimchi?
Have some.
How do I live all by myself?
My brother is gone.
My parents are getting divorced.
I was going to depend on Yaya from now on...
Your parents are getting divorced?
Well, you have me.
I'll take good care of you from now on.
Cry more after you eat.
You'll get indigestion.
Suffering from depression?
I just don't understand it.
People with strong pride don't let it show sometimes.
But still...
Please eat.
Just four times, please.
I feel this sad...
so I'm sure you must be devastated.
I just can't believe this is happening.
Depression can be scary.
It's not depression.
Think about it from Yaya's point of view.
She lost her parents when she was young, then her brother...
Then even Nadan.
She pretended like she was okay, but she wasn't.
When she woke up from the accident, she looked for me.
She wouldn't do that if she had depression.
I would've sensed something wrong.
You know what people say.
You can never fully know a woman.
Although she was suffering inside,
she could've been hiding it.
You don't know Yaya that well.
A dying person never lies.
Why would she leave a fake note?
I even gave her my blessing for the marriage.
Unless she was depressed...
Remember what I told Yaya?
When Yongjun died,
I told her she must endure the pain to have a brighter life.
You should endure this, too.
I regret one thing.
When Yongjun passed away,
she should've married you, not Nadan.
She suffered too much and at the end broke down.
You have to be strong... for Yaya's sake.
You can't break down over this.
You grandmother and mother are taking this very hard
If your grandmother sees you like this, she might...
Everybody has their duties as parents and children.
Foolish girl...
She should've talked about it. At least with you...
She should've said she was suffering.
Are you going to be okay sleeping there?
That's not what's important right now.
You don't even have new clothes to change into.
I can buy some new socks and other things.
Isn't Junso crying and looking for us?
I'm not sure if this little one knows something is wrong.
He eats well and is doing well today.
Please leave.
I'll call you later.
Hwaom, I think this is my second letter to you.
I wrote you before on your birthday.
I'm sorry to write you under such bad circumstances.
Let's think of our acquaintance in this life as practice.
In our next lives,
we'll fall in love with each other at first sight,
get married and have a happy life together.
I'll be a good girl then.
I hope you say "yes" out loud when you read this.
So that my soul can hear you...
I think I'd be able to hear you.
Then my soul will be so relieved.
I think I'll finally find some peace then.
I couldn't tell you before,
but it was so hard for me.
I tried to just focus on my present, but that wasn't easy.
I'll leave this world first and get some rest.
You should meet someone nice and enjoy your life, and then join me.
I'm not just saying this.
I really mean it.
If you care about me,
please do that.
I trust you that you will.
I was always thankful...
and sorry to you at the same time.
You were the only thing that kept me going until now.
I'm taking many good memories with me.
Goodbye.
You know what I'm trying to say, don't you?
No, I don't know.
Do you eat the seeds?
Why are your parents getting divorced?
It's over something small.
And I don't care if they do.
Hello?
Aren't you coming, Writer Jung?
I'll be there soon.
How is Hwaom? Is he crying?
Yes.
To be honest...
It was all my fault that Yaya died.
I told Yaya to live abroad without telling Hwaom.
I made Attorney Hwang prepare everything,
and she was supposed to be on the plane today at 8AM.
What do I do?
I lived too long.
I didn't want anything bad to happen to Hwaom like Nadan.
I told her to come back...
when Hwaom got married and settled down.
She asked me how she could live without seeing Junso.
I'm the cause of her death.
Did you know about this, too?
That doesn't matter.
I'm the one who gave the orders.
Yaya didn't say anything about me,
although she took her own life.
She used depression as an excuse of her suicide...
Don't say anything to Hwaom.
Him finding out the truth will do nothing good.
Gods will not forgive me.
I'll go to hell.
It's Yaya's fault for jumping into the ocean.
Gosh, she was barely hanging on,
but I must've broken her hope.
Please calm down.
You should eat a little bit.
I heard you didn't eat anything from the morning.
Why isn't he here yet?
Go upstairs and get some rest.
I'll be here until someone comes back.
Lock the door.
Why would I lock the door?
Don't you usually lock the door?
Did you order more food?
It's your mother.
I'll be leaving now.
Thanks for coming.
Why was he here? Did you call him?
Yes.
Yaya...
They couldn't find her?
He's the witness.
Please sit down.
Thank you for coming.
Please tell me what happened.
Did you see her with your own eyes?
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